Half finished

I always start things and am never able to finish them. There are various words to describe me - Lazy, Careless, Apathetic, Dilly dallying, Idle, Lagging... etc(you get the picture) and for some reason i haven't been able to motivate myself. Oh i try(okay maybe not so much but a little i do) but somehow i never succeed. I've always been that girl who can talk 40WPM(words per minute) or that girl who is such a clown, now i'm soon to become that girl who leaves everything half way through too.
I recently started working as i've mentioned before in one of my posts in a job i've wanted since i was 7. I never wanted to be an actor, doctor, teacher( get that shocked look of your face), i have always wanted to be in the art business and now i am. However i cant seem to be motivated enough to do anything.
Its easy for me to blame everything i can( myself included) but i still don't do anything about it.. I tried Zumba a couple of months ago and it actually worked(no they are not paying me) but it did, but for some reason i stopped..
I keep thinking my motivation is out there in that big bad world of ours but i just don't have the balls to go and grab it! I Always wonder whether my dreams will be half finished just like everything else, and then i realise i can't afford them to. So at the moment i'm just trying to pick myself up by writing this hoping i learn something..
*crossed fingers and toes* 

Whats the rush?

Everyday on the way to or back from work something i have always noticed(i'm sure you have too) the number of people in/on their vehicles literally rushing( more like flying) to get somewhere. I have ALWAYS wondered where the hell are these people going?? I mean why are they in such a hurry? Where do they  have to go that they are willing to run over people and risk their own lives in the process.
They all can't be dying?or on the way to the hospital, and that's a hell allot of people to be  late for work. I mean hasn't the question ever come to your mind? You may have screamed it at them while they rush past you almost at the speed of light to where ever them seem to be going. But if you are one of those people please satisfy my curiosity and tell me WHERE ARE YOU GOING and WHATS THE RUSH? Considering you are the same people who do the EXACT same thing at night only with the high beam on( which makes me want to strangle you all)you cant be all Batman's and Superman's on the way to save us from doom so where are you going? Why is the need to save your own or somebody else's life not so important as it is to drive really fast. Today i saw a father with his family of three weaving through traffic on his motorbike honking continuously as if he was Moses and we were all just suddenly going to part and give way! His blatant disregard for his own family just showed me that he couldn't care less what he did to anyone else. Each and every driver such as him believe that nothing can happen to them, no one can harm them, its the power they feel from the vehicle underneath them that leads to such madness and later near fatal accidents!!
A request if you drive like that, PLEASE slow down, i don't care if your car/bike can go from 0 to 120mph in under 6 seconds(and frankly i don't care) but what i do care for is the people you almost kill(one of them being me sometimes).

*ISSUED IN REGARD OF PUBLIC SAFETY BY ME*

Gods Among us.

We live in a world where religion, faith, belief are words that are used on an everyday basis in any forum possible. Be it politics, food, art or entertainment? The story of different gods is well known to all of us be it the Greeks, The Vikings, Hindu's, Christians or Muslims. However the same gods that bring us together today are the one's that seem have been tearing us apart. We live in a world filled with so much hypocrisy that we often let reality slip right pass us. We let the good things go because we believe in our own way, that each one of us are pleasing god somehow, gaining ourselves into his good books destined for heaven. And then there is the constant debate over whether heaven/hell really exist.
People go through to much of trouble to try and prove that which may or not be there that we go on to ignore that which is really there. To loosely define the word ''God'' in my own words it means to have faith and belief in something/someone with a worldly sense and power. Well then i believe there are gods among us, gods are all those parents out there who strive to do the best they can by their child/children, god is each and every soldier who puts his life to risk while we sleep well at night, gods are all those every firemen who don't think twice about themselves, gods are those teachers who take time out to help those in need, gods are those doctors who give and help everyone without thinking of their gains.
The way i see it there are gods everywhere but we are just too blindsided by what we have been made to believe that we don't see the self made gods that surround us everyday!
Look around you, you me be surprised by what you see, its time to stop dreaming and face reality.