I always start things and am never able to finish them. There are various words to describe me - Lazy, Careless, Apathetic, Dilly dallying, Idle, Lagging... etc(you get the picture) and for some reason i haven't been able to motivate myself. Oh i try(okay maybe not so much but a little i do) but somehow i never succeed. I've always been that girl who can talk 40WPM(words per minute) or that girl who is such a clown, now i'm soon to become that girl who leaves everything half way through too.
I recently started working as i've mentioned before in one of my posts in a job i've wanted since i was 7. I never wanted to be an actor, doctor, teacher( get that shocked look of your face), i have always wanted to be in the art business and now i am. However i cant seem to be motivated enough to do anything.
Its easy for me to blame everything i can( myself included) but i still don't do anything about it.. I tried Zumba a couple of months ago and it actually worked(no they are not paying me) but it did, but for some reason i stopped..
I keep thinking my motivation is out there in that big bad world of ours but i just don't have the balls to go and grab it! I Always wonder whether my dreams will be half finished just like everything else, and then i realise i can't afford them to. So at the moment i'm just trying to pick myself up by writing this hoping i learn something..
*crossed fingers and toes*
I recently started working as i've mentioned before in one of my posts in a job i've wanted since i was 7. I never wanted to be an actor, doctor, teacher( get that shocked look of your face), i have always wanted to be in the art business and now i am. However i cant seem to be motivated enough to do anything.
Its easy for me to blame everything i can( myself included) but i still don't do anything about it.. I tried Zumba a couple of months ago and it actually worked(no they are not paying me) but it did, but for some reason i stopped..
I keep thinking my motivation is out there in that big bad world of ours but i just don't have the balls to go and grab it! I Always wonder whether my dreams will be half finished just like everything else, and then i realise i can't afford them to. So at the moment i'm just trying to pick myself up by writing this hoping i learn something..
*crossed fingers and toes*
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